universal bits

bits
I used to have this thing on my blog I could see the visitors and where they were from and when they  visited.  It's gone... but maybe you're still out there, I just don't see you anymore.  I write to look back on years later.. to wonder who I was and what was happening and what would be.  But if you're out there, thanks.. I'm glad you're listening and maybe enjoying things. I don't even think the comments script works anymore..so there's that, too.

I get deep-think sometimes.  I want to explore the depths of math and chemistry.. I want to learn more about plants.  I want to time travel because there are never enough hours in the day.  I like having lots of stuff to rattle around in my head, because then I have a choice of what I listen to rattling amongst everything that is in there. 

I fight against the minimalist.. who wants to scrap everything down to a bare white room - and the hoarder who has everything she might possibly need but she can't find it.  I'm the guru in the middle, trying to find the balance.  It's this way for information, for things, for feelings.  I'm never in just one place even when I'm standing still. 

I read Esme's book 'Lone Wolf', and it was good.  I ordered the second one 'Shadow Wolf', and I'll probably read that one, too.  I'm reading the 'Essex Serpent'.. and I don't know yet if I like it or not.  I downloaded two kids books by Rick Riordan about Apollo being condemned by Zeus to live as a teenager on Earth.  That looks like it will be good -- will get to it after I decide to finish or stash the Essex Serpent.  It's been on my wait list for a while... the writing is good, but I'm just not sure if it is going where I want to go right now.

I found my Math Girls book... I might have to crack that again.  I liked it, but tanked it for doing other things.

We're taking the girls out today - Esme is getting ready to meet her friend.  There is a carnival downtown.  And then we have plants to put in the ground.  I do love the garden.  I wish it was warmer and things would grow this year.  I wish I had more time to watch things grow, to draw them, and study them... but it is really about what do I do with those hours in between right now... and sometimes I don't really know what to do with them because everything feels like it would take too long to get started only to have to stop.

The universe continues to surprise me...

A very unique piece of rock
(on a porch chair Ninja cat tore the upholstery off of)

I looked down on my walk with Esme and there it was - looking for all the world like a piece of circuitboard or other man-made item. The first thing I did was turn it over expecting it to be a piece of plastic - but it is chert rock from our driveway. Mark also turned it all over in his hands when I gave it to him - and said 'what in the world - that is worth a picture!' What would you call it, a naturally occurring piece of conundrum? *ducks down before the shoes start flying through the air*. I swear there is a near perfect question mark in there, to top it all off.


My partners in crime, in all their puppyness.

I feel like the day is very early outside - but there is not much I can get done with that time. There are things I can do, of course, but they are not 'big' things... I guess sometimes it is the little things that build together.

Things I would like to get done sometime soon:'
Decide where and plant some more flowers. I saw purple tulips today that spoke to me. Start the tomato seeds for the black prince - the only one we have to start. Make Grandma a simple plank bench in her back yard - hers has fallen to bits. -- I have not mentioned this to her, but consider this a reccommendation? :)

Things I will get done or close to done today:
Sew Esme's sweater together - if there is enough yarn (there was not :(
Wash the towels.
Pick up some toys off of my desk which is swamped in them.
Give Esme a bath. She is filthy from running around outside!

Summer Solstice

I usually get up at dawn to watch the sunrise on the Solstice, because I was born around 7:30. However, this morning I didn't feel a need to go sit in the sun and ask for 'answers'... I woke up with the sun coming in our windows and across the trees in the yard - and Mark asleep across from me. I had a soft pillow drawn up under my stomach, and our baby nestled there (not kicking, although she had been moving actively just before I went to sleep). I didn't need to go look for answers - because this feels sweet and right. I smiled and went back to sleep for a while.

About nine I went for a walk down to the lake. I sat on the big sandstone rock there and looked out over the mirror surface of the water. The sun was warm, and the blue of the sky was reflected with all the greens of the trees. There are a myriad of grasses, mosses and other life at the lake. I watched fish jump and swim just under the surface, small spiders build their webs betweeen blades of grass, and dragonflies danced out over the lake, fishing for smaller bugs. A mockingbird flew in from a tree to snatch a dragonfly right out of the air. A blue heron took flight across the lake.

Instead of looking for answers I was just soaking in all of the experience. The structure of life, and its many forms, all of what I could see from one small spot on Earth. The colors, and sounds and warmth of that place was alive yet serene. Instead of looking within for a birthday mediatation, I was looking outward and letting it come in.

I'll still be looking for messages, if not expecting them to answer anything. The universe is full of messages and experiences to contemplate on and interpret. It's just part of what I've been exploring all of my life - the journey of being human and stopping to try to understand the moment as well as the destination.