Wednesday, June 10, 2015
And a little comment about myself. I honestly could not pass a chemistry test put in front of me at the moment. I am halfway mixed-up in physics unless I dive into it for a while first. I am fairly good at math - but last time I went through the steps I broke up at dividing polynomials and I am still offended by that... need to find more resources and smack that tetherball hard until I figure it out. But I feel I have no time...or at least none that will be usefully applied to this when there are so many other things that are pressing.
But, my brain won't shut up. I dust vanities at work and out of nowhere I am compelled to find out what actinides have to do with paramagnetism. I solve a garden hose adapter problem for someone and the phrase 'green gallium' comes up...then before I know it I am propelled into indium gallium superconductors at the same time there are all these interesting articles about them (which I had not even seen hair of before that). I woke up one night with some very clear idea of a melting point threshold and reaction with a tin compound that was all written out in front of me like some foreign language. And lately praseodymium crystals, optics and again magnetism are chewing on that same little corner of my brain suggesting words to look up. But the rational part of my brain says 'I don't know anything about this!'. The real question is - I obviously know (at some level) something about this, and I am just refusing myself time to study it, because it feels like 'chasing butterflies.' What is the answer to that? I don't know... and Esme comes bounding up the stairs and asks to play games.