This is one of my favourites.
January 6, 2007 8:00pm
There will be a few changes here at KnitOwl - and hopefully all of them good. There are many facets to my personality, and I've only been showing a few of them on the blog.
That echoes a lot of what I felt the past few years -- only parts of my true personality were 'acceptable' -- and that attitude has changed especially in the past few months. There are things that are important to me that I once kept 'under wraps' as to not jar with Jesse's family's religious beliefs. These facets are unconventional - but are an important part of me. Some of them come from my own family, and others from my own sense of what is 'True.' I no longer feel the need to be ashamed of what I am - or what I choose to believe.
My artwork and dreams are important to me. They contain a complex symbolic language that has developed into a 'conversation' with my subconscious. At times, they seem mystical and magical. Although I earned a degree in Art and Sociology at the University - most of my free time was spent in the library studying symbols, language, mythology and art from around the world. I could spend hours at the library - up until closing, filling sketchbooks and notebooks, reading obscure forgotten books and trying to make my connections about 'the Universe.' My mind wandered over many subjects - including math, science and philosophy - always returning to what seemed to be universal kernels of truth, spread among cultures far and wide.
I couldn't draw hardly at all when I began at the college. The art evolved with my knowledge - and so did the 'conversation' in it. Now, I use time drawing as a way to connect with what I am really feeling, and examine the world around me (and within me) using the symbols and a sense of time and place built into each drawing.
Some may think it is a form of magic (and thus evil?) or some strange way of deluding myself that the Universe is speaking to me...- but I'm not listening to that point of view anymore. Having someone who can see this as special and important, not evil and/or silly, has helped me be true to myself - and opened up a vast well of energy that was stifled for many years. Now that it is open again, I feel that energy coming out in every part of my life - as if I am finally on the right path again. Maybe the Universe is speaking to me.. or at least, I'm having a conversation with my inner Universe -- touching parts of my mind that otherwise wouldn't have the ability to speak to my conscious self and be heard...
These were drawings made within the past three weeks, and are just a handful of the many many pages I have been filling lately. Each drawing is begun in a set of random lines that evolve towards a complete picture.
January 19, 2007 before noon
January 20, 2007 10:30 am
January 21, 2007 5:00pm